I wouldn’t say I’m letting myself go but …

September 2nd, 2010

It’s been a rough three months. I’m tired. I’m restless. I looked in the mirror today after I got dressed and said out loud, “Oh man, when did I get frumpy?”

Matt said, “You don’t look frumpy to me.”

I kissed the man right on his face for that one, but I feel like my entire life is wrapped up in the buy/sell process (still praying for you, Natasha!) and it’s starting to take its toll. While I’m not exactly old, I’m not exactly a spring chicken either. I’m not just bouncing back from this, you know?

Right now, more than anything on God’s green Earth, I want to take a nap. I just want to curl up in a ball with my Emmy Bug and snooze! Rest my body, then hit the gym for a good, solid, hour-long workout, and I want the workout to be sweaty and hard.

Maybe I need to hook up with a trainer again for a little while? Maybe I need not to eat the cheesecake Matt brings home to me from his lunch at TGIFridays? I’m not sure what I need. Work is hectic and stressful and my schedule is insane through November. I’m trying to be as organized as possible so I can come back to work ASAP after we move.

I’m teaching three classes a week and lifting weights at least twice. It’s gotta be my diet these days?

I don’t know, I just don’t feel like me right now. Blah.

Free living room set

September 2nd, 2010

We reached agreements with our sellers in regard to a number of things at the new house, one of those things being their living room furniture, so I decided to pay it forward and posted our living room set on craigslist. FREE. After the first taker flaked on me, I emailed the second, he called me back within two minutes and was at my door in under 40 with his wife, nephew, and nephew’s roommate.

The boys just started college and had moved into an apartment on Sunday. They are basketball players and were completely psyched about the furniture. You could see the word “PARTY” all over their faces. I was thrilled as well because it is perfect for them! They can jump up and down, party, make out with some cheerleaders, whatever, and when school’s over take it to the dump.

The boys were super excited, yet bummed they didn’t have room to take the armchairs. Man, they really liked those armchairs! I told them I would hold onto them for a couple of days if they wanted to work out coming back for them. I wasn’t in a big hurry to get them out the door.

They were so stoked and still rather disbelieving that we were giving this stuff away. Me? I just wanted it out of the house so I can make room for boxes and other furniture in hopes of easing the moving ourselves process, which we are full steam ahead with.

I feel so damn good about this.

I like to encourage him

September 1st, 2010

As an exercise to stimulate thought and introspection, I encouraged my husband to start a blog. He said, “What should I write about? I’m not a very good writer? Do I need a theme?”

“Not really, but why don’t you write about your work? It’s easier to write about something you like and you like your work and do a lot of cool things with it. I’m sure people would enjoy reading about some of your adventures and what it’s like to be on the inside of the entertainment industry.”

Done, and he’s been good about writing in it at least once a week, on his own, no pressure from me. He posted a blog last night about our Saturday trip up to Delaware, complete with pictures of a moving LED light packed into the top case. I have to admit, it was rough having that thing taking up a good four inches of my personal space for an hour and a half, but I love Matt and I love the motorcycle. It was worth it.

P.S. – I’m glad he didn’t post the picture of me housing a donut …

Bags and bags and bags

August 31st, 2010

So, Sunday, I was the craigslist stalker, trying to hunt down larger boxes for lamps and linens, as well as packing materials. I was having no luck so I figured I should just I should probably just chill out for a bit and see what happens.

Then, last night at 9:00 I got an email, “All of my boxes are gone but I have a ton of packing paper. I have put bags of it on my curb (clean, no trash). Let me know and I’ll give you the address. You can just have it. It is the nice white kind. Please as much as you want. Recycle didn’t pick it up today and trash comes Wed.”

I replied. She replied back with the address. Five minutes later, I texted the address to Matt so he would know where I was, and I got in my car and drove to Ellicott City. I was expecting a couple of bags worth but when I pulled into their count I burst into a fit of laughter. Oh man, this woman wasn’t kidding about a ton! There must have been thirty garbage bags of packing paper out there! It was too dark to take a picture but it was tremendous!

I shoved eight, very full bags into the back of my Outback and drove home, completely stoked that I now have more than enough packing paper to finish getting the house packed up.

I also sent her an email telling her that Howard County doesn’t pick up recycling unless it’s in the approved, county-distributed containers. I also let her know that I’m game for some more boxes, specifically for lamps and larger boxes for linens so hopefully I can hook that up this weekend.

And because I’m in such a good mood, I’d like to share one of my favorite upbeat tunes since we are Moving Right Along.

When it’s love

August 30th, 2010

When Matt has early morning/late night gigs, I get up with him to make breakfast and coffee and ensure that he has important things like sunglasses, his box cutter, and a cell phone before he runs out the door.

Then, I wait up for him to come home. You know, to make him something to eat if he’s hungry, put the toothpaste on his toothbrush, start the shower, turn the bed down, set the alarm, put his clothes in the hamper … all the things a man who just worked 16 hours several days in a row doesn’t want to think about or do. He just wants to go to bed!

And this is how I know it’s love. Because I don’t have to do any of it. I do it because I want to. I do it because I enjoy being kind and selfless in regard to my husband’s needs. I enjoy being a part of his world and easing his mind in any way that I can.

In return, I am thankful that he never gets upset the times that I don’t. Sometimes, he even puts his hand on my shoulder when I’m crawling out of bed and says, “Don’t get up today. Just sleep. I’ve got this,” and on the nights when I crash before he comes home, I often wake up to find him pressed up against me. When I move, he mumbles, “Bug.”

That word is pretty high up on my top ten list right now.

I love having cats

August 30th, 2010

I was home most all of yesterday save about an hour mid-afternoon, and I learned a few things about my cats:

  1. I am not the only one offended by the stench of Diesel’s gas. It is, after all, 50% of the reason he got his name. Emily is also highly offended.
  2. When I’m home all day, it must mean play time!
  3. Oh, you won’t play with me? Okay, I’m going to knock this pen cup over and then scatter pens all over the house.
  4. Oh, you are trying to study? How about I just sit riiiiiiiiight here, and then hiss at you when you push me aside.
  5. Hey! Look at me! I’m on the counter! Hey! Over here! Look! Look! Look! I’m somewhere I’m not supposed to be!
  6. I don’t know what that noise was or why there’s water all over the rug.
  7. I left you a REALLY BIG present on the bathroom rug.
  8. Was that the treat bag? No? Well, I’m going to go cough up a hairball now.
  9. When is daddy coming home? (I swear they actually ask this because when we are both home, one of us has time to play)
  10. My gas is worse than ever! Come snuggle with me on the couch.

But then, at night, when they curl up in bed and start purring and they are all warm and soft and snuggly … all is forgiven. The cuteness saves them, really.

On moving ourselves

August 29th, 2010

Oh, and now I am overflowing with quite a bit of excitement!

My biggest issue about moving ourselves was the furniture. Particularly our big, heavy couches and arm chairs that I never really liked. UGH. So totally did not want to deal with them on moving day. As I’ve been packing things up, I’ve been trying to envision where everything will go in the new house, and it’s keeping me happy but the furniture? OH GOD THE FURNITURE!!! Then, I got an email from my agent:

Are you interested in the living room set? Bought last year, used minimally, includes sofa, oversized chair and ottoman – $700

So I fired back, “Will they take $600 and throw in the rug? It looks so nice with that set. Also, they can leave the big, heavy plants if they don’t want to take them along.”

And then my brain got to stirring, as it tends to do. This morning, I had posted one of our sofas on craigslist and it was breaking my heart because it was the nicest of our sofas, and also had belonged to my grandparents, but it wouldn’t go with anything based on how I would have to set up the house. It went just fine here because the room it was in was so separate from everything else … Anyway, I figured I would just let it go when

BING!

The furniture that the owners are selling is nice and neutral and I was like, “Holy crap. We can get rid of our beat up sofa, love seat, blue chair, and that crazy chair that has been a point of contention for the past five years and take the nice couch with us and buy the recliner that Matt has been dreaming of!”

Done, I am more than sold, and I pulled the sofa from craigslist. Even if the owners want full asking price for the furniture and aren’t willing to give us the rug, I’ll still take it. It’s worth it not to have to haul this monster furniture and figure out how the hell to get it down the hallway!

Hopefully, we can close the deal and get our furniture out before the end of the week. That way, we can move everything from the third floor down to the second so it’s one less flight of stairs we’ll have to deal with on moving day!

I really like how this is all coming together. Heck yeah!

Sunday, Sunday, Sunday!

August 29th, 2010

I’ve always liked saying that.

I’m going to pack up all of our pictures and paintings and pillows today, and carry all of the boxes that are upstairs down to the first floor, except for my grandmother’s china, which is off limits to anyone except me! At some point, I’ll work in a trip to the grocery store and to the hardware store. And to the gym …

Sunday also gives me the chance to reflect on the spiritual awakening that’s happening inside of me. Last night, at dinner, Matt said to me, “I like what’s happening with you. Whatever it is you are doing with the whole God thing, it’s working. You aren’t angry anymore. You don’t yell and go off as much as you used to.”

Then he said, “So, have you been praying about all of this? You know, with the house?”

“Yup. Since I’ve met you I’ve been praying, but probably a little more deeply since we got married. I feel open about it, and I have a lot more to pray for now. Stakes being higher and all.”

“So, you really believe that God is going to make this happen?”

“Well, he made us happen, so absolutely. And if it’s not this house, it will be another. Will my heart be broken? Of course, but he will send along something else to heal it. Just like he did with you.”

“Oh stop it.”

“I mean it.”

“I know.”

Saturday

August 28th, 2010

I had a really nice run with my friend Stacey this morning. We ran for about 35 minutes, not counting the two minutes when I stopped to pee, and we chatted the entire time. You know, from the minute we got into the car until I drove away to leave. It was awesome.

This afternoon, Matt and I rode the Beemer up to Newcastle, DE. In case you are wondering, it was 187 miles round trip and I feel like someone spanked my ass with a hairbrush. Matt called me a trooper. I just grunted.

It wasn’t too bad heading north on 95, and after we dropped off a small moving light to be fitted for a road case, we went to the farmer’s market, where Matt and I shared and elephant ear. It was ridiculously good, and we fought over it like children. Then we found a stand selling chocolate covered bacon so we were like, “Why not?” My initial reaction was GROSS, but then I found myself glad I didn’t remain at the stand to eat it and thus end up buying 10 more pieces.

The ride home was hell. Traffic was moving so slow we had to pull off into some shade so we could drink water and cool off. Of course, that only made matters worse because EVERYONE was looking over at us and I could see people mouthing, “What’s going on over there?”

So, now we are home with the cats and not going anywhere for the rest of the evening. Matt is working ALL DAY tomorrow, so I’ll start moving things down to the first floor.

He comes around to it

August 27th, 2010

Matt is officially excited about the new house. We chatted about the drive down our street, mulching out the one side of the driveway, sitting out on our deck, looking at the stars, digging a fire pit, hanging a hammock, having the windows open …

It’s nice to see him so giddy. I haven’t seen him like this since we got out of the limo at our reception venue and took a bunch of pictures next to a tree. He’s that happy!

I think Diesel is excited, too. He’s downstairs playing in boxes and packing paper.