The past couple of months have been hard ones.
That job? Made me so stressed and depressed I left work crying and feeling like I was going to vomit every damn day. So I quit and am working part-time as a maître d’ at an upscale pub and am taking the time to focus on music and domestic issues.
I recently sat in with my friend’s praise band and that was ridiculously awesome to make music with 5 other people on the fly. I also arranged a song for my friend Lisa and I to sing together and carried that feeling of giving all week.
The music thing has been great. I’m learning tons about scales and relatives and am gradually picking up/making up leads to songs I know. Hearing tones, finding patterns, and shredding my fingertips to bits with 1-2 hours of practice a day.
Not much to say on the marriage front other than we finally found a counselor we can agree on seeing. That’s a slow moving train and I have NO IDEA where it’s going all I can do is hang on for the ride and explore whatever territory it takes me to.
I’m also searching for a new church because I’m no longer growing in the one I have been a member of. I can’t even get into the reasons why I’m leaving, it’s just too painful but through pastoral counseling and prayerful consideration I know I have made the right choice. Churches come and go, change and grow, but in the end one needs to be in a place where one can give as well as be fed or I will die in spirit.
So a lot of my life is in transit right now. I guess perhaps that’s the way I’ll always be. Thanks for being here during the silence.